Infradian Rhythms

Infradian Rhythms is a band based out of Northern Virginia.

Crescendo

Fade Away

Music: Kyle Akers, Randy Ames

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

I'm just a face lost in the crowd,
Trying to make it through somehow.
I keep hoping things will change, but I have my doubts
And I need to believe in something now.

I thought that I had lost the will to face the day,
But when you're near that feeling fades away.
Yeah, it fades away until you're all I see
And the whole damn world don't mean anything.
It never meant a thing.

Still deep down inside
I want something more than this ordinary life.
It might not change the truth,
But the thought subsides
And all I need is you when you're by my side.

I thought that I had lost the will to face the day,
But when you're near that feeling fades away.
Yeah, it fades away until you're all I see
And the whole damn world don't mean anything.
It never meant a thing.

I thought that I had lost the will to face the day,
But when you're near that feeling fades away.
Yeah, it fades away until you're all I see
And the whole damn world don't mean anything,

And after all this time
It still gives me peace of mind
To believe that you'll remember me.

Just Tell Me No

Music: Kyle Akers, Chris Simm

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

I don't want to be alone,
But by now we know each other. It could've worked out, but it won't.
You don't want to say the words but I already know
There comes a time when I should just let go.

So just tell me no, if that's what you mean,
So I can start living life without you.
Its a shame, but it's better than waiting
For a day I'll never see.
With you it's always maybe,
And by now I'm starting to doubt you.
Its absurd to me; I can't believe that you don't know what you want.
Well, I know I don't want this.

I don't want to say goodbye
But I just can't wait forever, and it's past time you decide.
You don't want to let me down, I can see it in your eyes,
But it's okay, just tell me what feels right.

So just tell me no, if that's what you mean,
So I can start living life without you.
Its a shame, but it's better than waiting
For a day I'll never see.
With you it's always maybe,
And by now I'm starting to doubt you. Its absurd to me; I can't believe that you don't know what you want.
Well, I know I don't want this.

I go for a walk down by the pond
I can still see us sitting in that tree.
Everything about this place reminds me of how things used to be.
And now that it's gone, I can't forget. I'm living in the past with my regrets, But as the cool air hits my face it brings me back to reality.
Then I let go.

So would you please just tell me no, if that's what you mean,
So I can start living life without you.
Its a shame, but it's better than waiting
For a day I'll never see.
With you it's always maybe,
And by now I'm starting to doubt you.
Its absurd to me; I can't believe that you don't know what you want.
Well, I know I don't want this.

Cheer Up

Music: Kyle Akers, Mary Grimes, Christian Burnette

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

For so long I was alone.
All the things that I had, none of it was enough.
As I laid awake I knew
I'd spend my days searching for you.

Suddenly, you were mine.
Now I see the plan in everything that we do.
I was afraid I'd spend my whole life
Without meeting someone like you.

I know that life's hard
And you think that you need to make it on your own,
But I'm here for you alone.

I can understand how you can
Get so sad, with everything we have,
But I see all our dreams coming true
And I don't need nobody but you,

So cheer up, this won't last
We'll be done, and then we can leave everything the past
Our whole lives will be ours
To lead however we want.

I could never let you know
Just how beautiful you are often enough,
So let me use this guitar to express
These words in a way that I can't myself.

Cheer up, we'll be fine.
I love you, and that's all that we need to get by.
Don't let life stress you out.
Together we will survive.

I'll Be Here for You

Music: Kyle Akers, CJ Norris

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

I'll be here for you
And I won't go nowhere.
I swear when the morning comes
I will always still be there.
Together we'll find a way,
That hopeless feeling won't last long,
And all these things you don't think you can take
You won't face alone.

You worry too much.
Nothing's worth the time you're wasting
Expecting nothing to go your way.
Just step back and think it through,
And I'll always be there to remind you
To just make it through another day
And know that everything will be just fine.

Because I'll be here for you
And I won't go nowhere.
I swear when the morning comes
I will always still be there.
Together we'll find a way,
That hopeless feeling won't last long,
And all these things you don't think you can take
You won't face alone.

There's no need to fear the past.
Now I have you and not a reason
To spare a passing thought for her.
I don't know how I could be so blind
To the things you do for me,
But I know my life would never be the same
If all I ever did was wish it were.

Now I'll be here for you
And I'm not going nowhere
I swear When the morning comes
I will always still be there.
Together we'll find a way,
That hopeless feeling won't last long
And all these things you don't think you can take
you won't face alone.

I think you aught to wait to miss me
Until some time after I go
Because right now we've got better things to do
You don't think we can take the distance
Or rough nights alone, but we'll make it through
No matter what stands between us
Don't feel alone, and know I'll always come back for you

I'll be here for you
And I won't go nowhere.
I swear when the morning comes
I will always still be there.
Together we'll find a way,
That hopeless feeling won't last long,
And all these things you don't think you can take
You won't face alone.

This Moment

Music: Kyle Akers, Jessica Akers

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

We were close the better part of a year
Enjoying weekends together. I remember quite clear
The day I took your hand, I hoped my nerves wouldn't show
When you didn't let go. How could we know

That we, for the rest of our lives,
Would remember that moment as the day that our futures aligned.
And now I can't even remember what it was like
Before the day that you said you'd be mine.

That late Autumn night, I took you down by the field
I bet you knew all along what I planned to reveal.
I got down on one knee and I asked you to choose.
As I gave you the ring, I think we both knew

That we, for the rest of our lives,
Would remember that moment as the day that our futures aligned.
And now I can't even remember what it was like
Before the day that you said you'd be mine.

Now our day has come, our dream's coming true.
We've recited our vows, and said our "I do"s
Now we share this first dance, with loved ones around the room.
I know I've got the best view: All I see is you

And we, for the rest of our lives,
Will remember this moment as the day that our futures' aligned.
And now I can't even remember what it was like
Before the day that you said you'd be mine.

All These Years

Music: Kyle Akers

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

I've had so many days I won't see again,
And I wonder if I'll think I spent them right
When I reach the end.

My life is moving too fast
And I can't take the time to appreciate

All these years we've had it all.
I never could have asked for more,
And I recognize that I couldn't have a better life.
While I'll never get enough
Of the best things that I'll ever have,
The memories of us,
Let's make as many as we can.

I can't ever find enough time to spend with friends and family,
And I get so tired. This work is killing me.
When will I see?

I can't keep living this way
Or I'll always regret days gone to waste.
When all these years we've had it all.
I never could have asked for more,
And I recognize that I couldn't have a better life.
While I'll never get enough
Of the best things that I'll ever have,
The memories of us,
Let's make as many as we can.

Through all these years we've had it all
I never could have asked for more,
And I recognize that I couldn't have a better life.
And while I'll never get enough
Of the best things that I'll ever have,
The memories of us,
Let's make as many as we can.

Coming Home

Music: Kyle Akers, Greg Akers, Christian Burnette

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

I've been driving all night,
And I need to rest my eyes
In a familiar place,
And I'm getting so close I can taste it,

Yeah, I'm ten miles away from stretching my legs out,
A mile away from the roads I know.
I'm coming back and all I can think about.

Yeah, I'm coming home.
(Coming home)
Yeah, I'm coming home.
(Coming home)
Yeah, I'm coming home.

My life keeps moving too fast
And when I need some time to relax,
Just unwind and take things slow,
I go back to where people know me.

Yes, I'm ten miles away from all our old hang outs,
A mile away from so long ago,
Coming back in a wave of nostalgia.

Yeah, I'm coming home.
(Coming home)
Yeah, I'm coming home.
(Coming home)
Yeah, I'm coming home.

I Still Remember

Music: Kyle Akers

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

Do you remember when we said
Things would always be the same,
And though the years may pass
This friendship we have,
That could never change?

But everyone left before my eyes
And now this doesn't feel like home.
Our space belongs to someone else.
I dont recognize this place anymore.

I still remember this town
How things used to be alive in memory.
How do I get back that feeling
Of living life without responsibilities?
Like we did those days,
Back when we had it made.

We spend all our time just keeping up
With these lives we've made.
Every time that we meet up
I can't explain, but it never feels the same,

And I still remember this town
How things used to be alive in memory.
How do I get back that feeling
Of living life without responsibilities?
Like we did those days,
Back when we had it made.

Everytime I hear this music,
It brings me back to better days.
The years melt away,
But when I wake somehow I always end up here,

And I still remember this town
How things used to be alive in memory.
How do I get back that feeling
Of living life without responsibilities?
Like we did those days,
Back when we had it made.

Do you remember when we said
Things would always be the same?
Well, now the years have passed
And somehow everything changed.

Gone For Good

Music: Kyle Akers

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

As I look back
Over all those distant memories
Of people now a part of me,
I'm slowly losing track
Of all the little things that I can't quite recall,
But oh, I wish I just could have it

All to do again.
I wish those days would never end,
But oh, oh I know
They're gone for good,

And I can't believe it's gone.
Yeah, I always thought we had more time.
The truth I dismissed as a lie
And now, awake, alone,
I realize you're no longer here and then
It's not long before I'm living

In the past again,
We still say those days will never end
Even though we both know
They're gone for good.

And now, I guess it's too late,
But my head is full of lingering regrets
Of wasted time and words I left unsaid.
Maybe someday
I'll come to terms with losing where I've been,
A place, a face, a friend

That I won't ever see again.
I wish those days would never end,
But oh, I know
That even though the days are gone,
We will hold on to memories of fun
And that's enough.

Yeah, that's enough...
Maybe that's enough?
Yeah, that's enough.

Day by Day

Music: Kyle Akers

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

Well, I'm tired and I feel I've used
Up everything that I had left. I need to work but I refuse.
What's it worth? The time ticks away
And I know tommorrow's going to be just like today.

There's so many things that I'd rather do,
And I can never get to everything that meant I to.
It's all I can take just getting through
This day by day so I can make it back to you.

Now it feels like we haven't had one
Day that we could spend on ourselves, without regretting what we should have gotten done.
We spend the time we get
Just winding down, recovering from all the shit.

There's so many things that I'd rather do,
But we don't the time or energy that we used to,
And that's too bad, but we've still got our youth.
The good times we've had are not the last, I promise you.

Ain't it funny how we don't appreciate
The time we have until it's gone, then we move on and it's too late?
So while today feels like it just won't end,
I know some day we'll wish we had it back again.

With so many things that I'd rather do,
I know I'll never get to everything I wanted to,
But that's okay, I'll have the life I choose,
And I know that I'll be glad that I shared it with you.

Decrescendo

Dreams

Music: Kyle Akers

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

I want to play something new, but it's always the same.
I pretend that I do, but that's a lie.
Oh I've tried, but I know that doesn't mean a thing.
I hate the thought of letting go, but it's time.

So now I'm burning every bridge I made.
I'll forget the words that we used to sing
And all those melodies, they'll never be
More than just a dream.
This will never amount to anything
And I've got to stay focused on important things.
There's a time to change, and today will be the day.
Though that's easier to say.

And now I've spent the better part of 20 years
Hoping this might be the reason that I'm here,
But I guess part of growing up is learning to accept
The things you want aren't always what you get.

So now I'm burning every bridge I made.
I'll forget the words that we used to sing
And all those melodies, they'll never be
More than just a dream.
This will never amount to anything
And I've got to stay focused on important things.
There's a time to change, and today will be the day.
Though that's easier to say
When you're giving up on your dreams.

Well, I tried forgetting everything
But I can't forget the way I felt that day,
And all those melodies will always be
Something I had that kept me sane,
And if it never amounts to anything
It's still a part of me, and maybe it's okay.
If I never change, I could find another way
And keep dreaming of the day.

This Feeling

Music: Kyle Akers, Daniel Fuller

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

You know it feels so good,
Playing here with you instead of doing what I should,
And I don't think its fair.
That some people get paid to take the stage (but not us)
We're stuck with forty hours working for our wage.
If we could just get there I know we're good enough now.

I was afraid that I had lost this part of me
Wasting every day at work, but now I see
That I need something else, and I believe
Maybe just one more time could be enough to keep this feeling.

This could never work.
We don't have the time we need to make it in this world,
But lately I don't care
Because its been years since I've had so much fun, and I know (yes I know)
That we're not here to entertain anyone (but ourselves)
And now I'm convinced that we could never just go back now.

I was afraid that I had lost this part of me
Wasting every day at work, but now I see
That I need something else, and I believe
Maybe just one more time could be enough to keep this feeling.

Crisis of Faith

Music: Kyle Akers

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

I thought I had things figured out
Until you introduced a seed of doubt.
Thinking back, alone, on what was said
Somehow I couldn't seem to get
The thought out of my head.

In a crisis of faith I realized
That this life is all there is,
And I was living mine based on a lie.
I never thought to question it,
But I'll never close my eyes again.
I've seen too much to just ignore
The way the world contradicts the lore.
There might be something more, but I need the proof
When everything I know suggests it isn't true.

I'd like to think death's not the end
And I wish that I'd see you again,
But how can I trust a thing they say
When it all comes down to having faith,
Taking their word blindly.

In a crisis of faith I realized
That this life is all there is,
And I was living mine based on a lie.
I never thought to question it,
But I'll never close my eyes again.
I've seen too much to just ignore
The way the world contradicts the lore.
There might be something more, but I need the proof
When everything I know suggests it isn't true.

They preach what they want and leave out the rest,
Always making claims that you can't test,
And the way so many see the holes
In all beliefs except their own
I'll never understand.

In a crisis of faith I realized
That this life is all there is,
And I was living mine based on a lie.
I never thought to question it,
But I'll never close my eyes again.
I've seen too much to just ignore
The way the world contradicts the lore.
There might be something more, but I need the proof
When everything I know suggests it isn't true.

No, it isn't true.

I was happier in ignorance,
And I could have lived a life of recompense,
But how can I now when it's not true?
I can't just accept what I don't see,
Still I am willing to believe.
I just need some proof.

Democracy

Music: Kyle Akers

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

When you elect someone to represent your views
You get no gaurantees they'll pass the policies
That you want them to.

In our democracy we're given a choice
Just to make us think that we've got a voice.
Sure, your vote counts but it's a numbers game,
So don't be suprised when nothing's changed.

How can you know what they really believe
When they sell their convictions and say anything
To get the votes they need?

In our democracy we're given a choice
Just to make us think that we've got a voice.
Sure, your vote counts but so does what you've paid,
And we wonder why things never change.

The system is broken, but what can you do
When they spend their careers learning to manipulate
People just like you?

In our democracy we're given a choice
Just to make us think that we've got a voice.
Sure, your vote counts but they're all the same.
No one's satisfied, but it won't ever change.

Sanity

Music: Kyle Akers

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

I'm in a fragile state of mind.
Over the years we've prioritized
Everything we need to survive,
But we spend so much time living within the lines,
And now I need to do something for me,

So I force myself to do the things that I used to enjoy
Hoping to reclaim something worth living for

And now I feel it coming back to me,
The ambition and opportunity
To make my life the way I want it to be,
And I start to believe that I'll make it out with my sanity.

But slowly every day started to fade
Into a mass of gray and coalesce.
I kept searching, or hoping, for something more
Until I became obsessed with a fantasy,
Trying to escape from my reality.

It's clear to me now that I crossed a line somewhere along the way.
I didn't recognize the signs my mind was slipping away

And now I feel it coming back to me,
The ambition and opportunity
To make my life the way I want it to be,
And I start to believe that I'll make it out with my sanity.

Count the Days

Music: Kyle Akers, Chris Simm

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

Is this the life that I've been
Spending all of my time working for?
I used to think it was, but lately I'm not sure.

Just look, now I've forgotten why I'm here again,
And I can't help but think
That there's no way this could be worth it in the end.

I don't know if I can last
Another day stuck in this place.
My motivation's gone, and every second is a waste.

It feels like every day is the same old shit.
This has to end.
I won't accept that this is it

So I just close my eyes and I wish
That I were still asleep or somewhere else,
And I count the days until I leave.

I don't think that it's enough
To live at night to get through the days.
How does everyone else hide they're dieing inside
When I can't keep the feeling away

That every day is worse than the last?
I need a change,
But I just keep keep living in the past

As I just close my eyes and I wish
That I were still asleep or somewhere else.
I count the days until I leave this all behind.
I don't want this life anymore, but still I can't say why
It's not the same as it was before

And I just close my eyes and I wish
That I were still asleep or somewhere else.
I count the days until I leave this all behind.
I don't want this life anymore, but still I can't say why
I'm not the same as I was before.

Heart

Music: Kyle Akers

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

There must be something wrong with me
Because I used to have everything
But slowly let it all fall apart.
I'm trying to keep this life together
But every day's harder than ever,
And I don't know if I've got the heart.

I thought I had a place that I could call my home
But after I accomplished all of my goals
I had too much time think
And now I don't know what I really want.

These responsibilities are growing old
And I'm not getting any younger, that's for sure.
When your heart's not in it anymore
This life just keeps going on.

There must be something wrong with me
Because I used to have everything
But slowly let it all fall apart.
I'm trying to keep this life together
But every day's harder than ever,
And I don't know if I've got the heart.

I put too many years into this job
And reached the point that I don't care at all.
I'm wasting time when I should just move on,
And the worst part
Is I remember the way that I was before.
I keep thinking if I walk out that door
Maybe somewhere else I could do something more,
But I don't even know where to start.

There must be something wrong with me
Because I used to have everything
But slowly let it all fall apart.
I'm trying to keep this life together
But every day's harder than ever,
And I don't know if I've got the heart.

I don't know my own friends anymore.
It's been too long since I've picked up the phone.
I'm isolating myself from everyone.
I don't want them to know
How far I've fallen since we keep in touch
I idealize the way things were when we were young,
But now I wake up every day and think it's all too much
And I can't make it on my own.

There must be something wrong with me
Because I used to have everything
But slowly let it all fall apart.
I'm trying to keep this life together
But every day's harder than ever,
And I don't know if I've got the heart.

This is not the way it was supposed to be,
But I'm finding what I really need
Is something that I've had from the start.
We'll get through this life together
But it breaks you down when you don't ever
Spend your time on what's in your heart.

All in My Head

Music: Kyle Akers

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

All these problems are just in my head.
I couldn't see it then like I do now,
But still I can't shake this feeling
I can't do anything, and I get so stressed out
And overwhelmed by the smallest things
That all I can think is I can't take this now.

Something's wrong, and I don't know why.
In a moment of clarity, I start to think
That there could still be
Enough time to turn a life around
And learn to understand that side of me.

I feel like I'm losing my mind
And I don't know how much more I can take
Of pretending things are fine
Hoping someday soon I'll finally break

Out of this cycle of sleepness nights
And self-destructive highs that keep me down,
But when it's time to see what I'm made of
My will's not strong enough and I don't see a way out.

Something's wrong, and I don't know why.
In a moment of clarity, I start to think
That there could still be
Enough time to turn a life around
And learn to understand that side of me,

But maybe it's all in my head.

Not This Time

Music: Kyle Akers, CJ Norris

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

I used to tell myself that I would grow
Out of these highs and familiar lows,
But they keep coming back to me when I'm alone
And I'm losing hope

That there will be a day when it all works out.
I've got to find a way to start living right now,
But I keep thinking I need to do something new
And just start over somewhere with you

And I don't want to fuck it up this time,
But I know myself and I'm sure I'll find a way.
Yeah, and I'm running out of chances to get things right
And I'm afraid that I won't ever be the same again,
And I don't know when it'll be okay.

These days I feel like I need to get away
From everything that we do,
But nothing I could say could show you

That I don't want to fuck it up this time,
But I know myself and I'm sure I'll find a way.
Yeah, and I'm running out of chances to get things right
And I'm afraid that I won't ever be the same again,
And I don't know when it'll be okay.

I'm not going to fuck it up this time,
Because I know myself and I'm sure I'll find a way.
Yeah, and I've still got a chance to get things right
Even though it might not ever be the same again,
And I don't know when,
But it'll be okay.

Free

Music: Kyle Akers

Lyrics: Kyle Akers

It's time to make a change.
Stake a claim to the things that you need
Then give it your everything until it's a life you can lead,
Or you'll never be free.

If you want to be someone else
There's nothing stopping you but yourself.

It's time to make a change.
Stake a claim to the things that you need
Then give it your everything until it's a life you can lead,
Or you'll never be free.

If you're not satisfied with your life then
You've got to take a risk and fail until you win.

It's time to make a change.
Stake a claim to the things that you need
Then give it your everything until it's a life you can lead,
Or you'll never be free from an endless cycle of mediocrity.
When you lose sight of the way that you wanted to be
Then you'll never be free.